Kathy Griffin candidly discussed her addiction to pills and past suicide attempt in a new interview.
In a new podcast released on Thursday, the 60-year-old comedienne reflected on her struggles in the wake of the backlash she received after posing with a bloody effigy of then-President Donald Trump in 2017.
‘I tried to kill myself, and ended up in the psych ward,’ Kathy said during an appearance on The New York Times’ Sway podcast.
Speaking out: Kathy Griffin candidly discussed her addiction to pills and past suicide attempt in a new interview. See in 2019
The My Life on the D-List star first revealed her pill addiction and suicide attempt last August in an interview with ABC News.
In the same interview, she disclosed that she was battling stage one lung cancer despite never having smoked cigarettes.
Last December, Kathy told Jimmy Kimmel that she was now ‘cancer-free’ after undergoing surgery to remove half of her lung.
In her Thursday interview, the Emmy Award winner shared her thoughts on the circumstances that led to her addiction.
‘I think — well, look, I think that I’m probably an addictive person, you know,’ Kathy said.
‘But you have to admit, it’s almost comical. I went in the hospital for pill addiction at 59 years old. Who the hell becomes a junkie in their late 50s? Me.’
She explained that she felt adrift after being ‘canceled’ and losing all of her gigs in the aftermath of the controversy.
‘I didn’t know what to do with myself,’ Kathy admitted.
She continued, ‘I was just such a crazy workaholic, and all of a sudden, I had this time on my hands, and then I was depressed, and things just weren’t looking up.
‘And then you fall into the “Life will be better for my husband without me around.” and you then call the estate attorney and the whole thing.’
Love: The Illinois native married marketing executive Randy Bick in December 2020 after eight years of dating. See in 2019
The Illinois native married marketing executive Randy Bick in December 2020 after eight years of dating.
Kathy went on to say, ‘It just came to a point where I was convinced that I had a good run on this planet and now it’s time for me to go. It’s been good. I’ve done a lot of great stuff and so you know, it gets pretty crazy.’
The Search Party actress explained that the on-set of the COVID-19 in 2020 pandemic also contributed to her developing an addiction.
‘Not to blame Covid, but Covid is just laying around all day and trying to figure out life,’ she said. ‘So that was rough although, it was a good thing ultimately and it was sobering quite literally and so I’m, you know, happily a member of AA.’
Kathy added, ‘Although I never had a drink still and I won’t. But it was really exclusively pills. I still go to AA because it’s like a bigger umbrella.’
The comedienne said that she began taking Oxycontin, benzodiazapines including Valium, Clonopin and Ativan, as well as Adderall and Provigil.
‘So I didn’t know I was doing like a rich white lady speedball basically,’ she joked.
‘The painkillers are insidious because I did get addicted like the classic story. I had injuries. But then you start taking more than you need. You can’t sleep so then you take the downers and then you gotta get up so you take the uppers.’
Kathy continued, ‘And it just got crazy and it got away from me, seriously. I kind of knew it was getting bad. And then once the suicide thoughts take over, you think this has nothing to do with drugs.
‘I’m just being suicidal out of the blue, which turns out was not the case. I am not suicidal but I certainly thought so.’
The performer explained that her thoughts of suicide went away after she went into recovery.
‘But I’ll tell you, detoxing was hard, man,’ she said. ‘And I did a real detox. I didn’t go to like the fancy place because of Covid. But it was an important process and I love my meetings that I go to and all that stuff.
‘I’m one of those corny, happy members.’
Kathy said that her two suicide attempts convinced her to seek help and embrace sobriety.
‘It was the fact that I overdosed and thought I was going to die,’ she said. ‘I fell down the stairs and I just got a bunch of injuries instead.’
She continued, ‘And I didn’t remember it and I had never blacked out before in my life. So I was like ok, this is bad. And then I fell down one more time because I tried to do it a second time the next day.
‘And then finally, I actually called my husband who I had kicked out of the house in a fight, which was really dumb but also drug-fueled.’
In remission: In her ABC interview last August, she disclosed that she was battling stage one lung cancer despite never having smoked cigarettes. Last December, Kathy told Jimmy Kimmel that she was now ‘cancer-free’ after undergoing surgery to remove half of her lung
Kathy explained that she told Randy that she had injured herself and needed to go to the hospital.
After telling doctors that she had attempted suicide, Kathy was admitted to the psychiatric ward on a 51/50 hold.
‘And so I’m there, in the hospital psych ward for three days and boy, that will sober you up like nothing. You have no drugs, you’re just shaking, and I’m looking at the ceiling and just reassessing life choices and you have nothing but your own thoughts.’
Kathy went on to say that the hospital connected her with super clinicians who aided her in her recovery.
‘And so that really saved my life,’ she admitted. ‘Through that process, you are kind of unpacking anything and everything. Everything is kind of surrounded by that a little bit. That comes first and then you know, you can, I don’t want to say deal with the shallow career stuff but we’ll see if maybe being quote ‘cancelled’ isn’t worth dying for.’